This song was written by fusing two different songs that I was working on. I had the chorus written in March 2020 and set it to the side because I couldn't find a rhythm to accompany. The verses were written in September 2020 and they reflect a realization that I had lost part of myself in the past four years after graduating college in 2016.
I was always proud of my confidence and ability to trust my gut but somehow I feel like I lost that and only when writing this song did I feel at the point where I was starting to feel like myself again.
Life in a corporate setting started to wear me down and I identified so hard with the places I worked at and realized that I was very different from the people that I was surround by, so it was hard to relate. I'm a Salvadoran-American raised by immigrant parents working in advertising in which the demographic is majorly white. Of course there was going to be an identity crisis. The mistrust in myself and inability to express how I felt about decisions I'd taken in my life ultimately caught up to me and I popped like a lil bubble.
I'm in a better headspace now and the chorus is the confidence that has begun to take over again.
TY for listening.
lyrics
A ti (to you)
voz que ignoro (voice I ignore)
paz que necesito (peace I need)
perdoname (forgive me)
un dia te escuchare (one day i'll listen to you)
porque te hecho de menos (because I miss you)
ahora en el oscuro (in the darkness)
entre una vez mas (enter once more)
le prometo mi atención (I promise you my attention)
I’m taking over, taking over, taking over, for you
Mi identidad doble (my double identity)
Dos mundos, un hombre, (two worlds, one man)
Femenino contagiado con machismo (feminine and sick with machismo)
ni en el espejo soy el mismo (i'm not the same even in the mirror)
no me digan de igualdad (don't tell me about equality)
Porque no puedo caminar en la calle sin que me den la miradas (cause I can't walk down the street without getting looks)
Y no, pido nada mas (and I don't ask for anything else)
Solo quisiera sentirme entero de aquí asta el final (I just want to feel whole until the finale)
Demaciado, ya! (enough, now)
No
I’m taking over, taking over, taking over, for you
I feel high with me
No pill
Pure Ecstasy
Chin up (now)
Chin up (now)
Piel canela, suficiente para mi (brown skin, enough for me)
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